i was almost raped by a us marine wednesday night. he's the best friend of one of my closest friends. we all went out drinking. he and i flirted shamelessly. i decided i should go home because i was too drunk to stick around and he came with me because 'you're too drunk to walk home by yourself.' we got back to my friend's place and within minutes i was half naked, pinned to the floor with a naked 6'3 230lb marine on top of me demanding that i suck him off. i thought he was going to force me to fuck him. i had to fight him off. i have the bruises to show for it.

i miss brad so much more than i did before. fuck.

i hate everything.